Wednesday, March 10, 2010
When playing it "safe" does nothing...
I've been inspired lately. Inspired to uproot the "safeness" that I have planted over the years and to throw my tree of "education and career goals" into the grinder. Lately its shade has not kept me cool, its just overshadowed my potential and stunted the growth of *me* as a person.
Lately... I've been inspired. To truly get to the bottom of what my heart desires to do in life and so just that. So what if it doesn't include money, so what if it doesn't seem to lead to a road of "success" (<-- aka what many equate to money)... So what.. SO what.. SO WHAT! :) Yea, it requires money to live... I haven't forgotten that, but I am *22* years old and if I don't take the chance to "take a chance" then Ill forever wish I would have...but taking a chance doesn't mean forsaking responsibility...
Lately Ive been inspired to capitalize on the things I *LOVE*LIKE* and *DESIRE* to do....Things outside my "Degree"..Because I'm learning that for ME...right now this degree means nothing... I spent these past four years of undergrad to learn that I put pressure on myself to produce in a direction that would lead me out of my parents "hair and pocket"..only to understand that I was never really in there in the first place. It took me 4 years to come to the understanding that WHO I AM..is WHO I AM.. and its WHO ILL BE..whether i try to hide it beneath a watered down version or not..but if I STEP UP to just be free in me.. my life will me so much more..
[sidenote Ex.... Do you ever see people while your out who are *mainstream* in there look..but these people are 100% comfortable in themselves...they know people stare and talk but because they have that strong sense of self and who they are..the looks and stares are irrelevant and ignored...]
So lately I have been inspired,inspired to unlock all my *childhood dreams*. Inspired not to live with the boxes and walls that I put up. Inspired to no longer hide under the overshadowing of my* safe tree*... Instead I'm inspired to go after things that my heart longs for.. Heck..if I end up living in a VAN for a period of time... it doesn't matter because God provides and I guarantee Ill learn some of my most valuable lessons...
So I want to inspired YOU too.. We have one life to live... and if at the end of it..shoot if RIGHT NOW...you still feel bottled up and unable to comfortable be you... come out from under your "safe place" because the shadow of your safe place doesn't allow much sun and rain to reach you...you need those two things.... to grow in yourself...until you reach that comfort in you..you will never be fully happy...so go discover yourself.NOW. :)
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Rain, rain, rain. on my face, on my face... Fill me up, Fill me up, until I drown...
So I *LOVE* Jonathan Stockstill as a worship leader and DELUGE as a band. If you listen to a lot of his worship music... you can feel the anointing oozing out of it. This is a song off of their up and coming Cd called *DEEPER*.
Friday, February 26, 2010
just.STOP.and.THINK
Last night at InterVarsity this video was played... It is actually quiet breath taking. The view, the simplicity, the truth in it. I took a concentrated effort to watch this video and I know it changed something in me. It had been a rough week and a half mentally/spiritually and I need to just take some time to be still. And I kept trying, but in the 15 minutes that I watched this video... I was able toand He spoke loud and clear.
Yea, it's 15 minutes, but it's 15 minutes that you wont want back...I think you might actually want to relive this 15 minutes quiet often to REMIND you of why it is that YOU CHOSE or are contemplating CHOOSING Jesus...not religion..but Jesus.
LOOK.around.YOU.
HE.is.EVERYWHERE.and.in.EVERYTHING
Alex :)
Yea, it's 15 minutes, but it's 15 minutes that you wont want back...I think you might actually want to relive this 15 minutes quiet often to REMIND you of why it is that YOU CHOSE or are contemplating CHOOSING Jesus...not religion..but Jesus.
LOOK.around.YOU.
HE.is.EVERYWHERE.and.in.EVERYTHING
Alex :)
GUESS WHO'S BACK!!!
So its been about 9 months since I have posted anything here. I'm changing up the pace of my blog. I am a **YOUNG** **FRESH** **STARVING** ** LEARNING** **GROWING** **LIVING** CHRISTIAN WOMAN... with many passions, many dreams and a WHOLE LOT of learning to do. So this blog is simple *ME* and whatever I want to present..to whoever is kind enough to read this...
Enjoy! Thanks for stopping by!
Alex :)
Enjoy! Thanks for stopping by!
Alex :)
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Pain
It’s this slight agony that I have found to be nesting within me. It’s a crying out and a holler for the generation that God is raising up. He is rising up this amazing generation who is on fire to spread truth…. NO PRETENSE..NO RELIGION… NO TRADITION, but TRUTH. This generation is so thirsty for something more. It’s fighting this spiritual fight of Faith, Love, Purity and more all for the sake of TRUTH. All for the sake of introducing others to the Mercy, Love, and grace that comes from the Master.
This week I have been hit hard however it hasn’t been in the realm of direct personal situations. I have been hit in realm of friends and family, and it hurts to see them hurt. I have had some just say they need prayer, and then I have had situations where I am watching and or listening to my friends cry there heart out, with me across from them or on the other end of the phone paining in agony over the fact That he has shown me that HE IS JEHOVAH, but they have yet to see.
There is just so much ground to cover and God is just revealing to me more and more that, the power of PRAYER is a powerful thing. Im just sitting here with out words to describe this aching I feel in my spirit. And im not necessarily an emotional person when it comes to crying and shedding tears, but over the past little bit of time I have witnessed a single tear drop slowly progress to a small flow of tears. But I’m ready for the rain, I’m ready to cry out and pour literal pools and rivers of tears because my insides feel as though they are going to explode, and that thing needs to be manifested in the natural.
The word says that those who sew in Tears shall reap in joy (PSALMS 126:5)
-My spirit cries and weeps for my family and friends when they suffer and when someone of my generation and time or younger is going at this life struggling, my heart beats for that person. So since I will reap my tears in Joy , I ask God to send the rain. As I consecrate and set my life aside for a plan and task SOO MUCH BIGGER than I am… I pray that I would be counted among the righteous so that my prayer would availeth much for the one who has yet to TRULLY SEE HIS FACE.
My prayer is for YOU because what you face today does not have to be what you face tomorrow. My prayer is for you because if you let PERFECT love you, there is NOTHING in this life that can tear you down and make you feel as though there is no way up..
This week I have been hit hard however it hasn’t been in the realm of direct personal situations. I have been hit in realm of friends and family, and it hurts to see them hurt. I have had some just say they need prayer, and then I have had situations where I am watching and or listening to my friends cry there heart out, with me across from them or on the other end of the phone paining in agony over the fact That he has shown me that HE IS JEHOVAH, but they have yet to see.
There is just so much ground to cover and God is just revealing to me more and more that, the power of PRAYER is a powerful thing. Im just sitting here with out words to describe this aching I feel in my spirit. And im not necessarily an emotional person when it comes to crying and shedding tears, but over the past little bit of time I have witnessed a single tear drop slowly progress to a small flow of tears. But I’m ready for the rain, I’m ready to cry out and pour literal pools and rivers of tears because my insides feel as though they are going to explode, and that thing needs to be manifested in the natural.
The word says that those who sew in Tears shall reap in joy (PSALMS 126:5)
-My spirit cries and weeps for my family and friends when they suffer and when someone of my generation and time or younger is going at this life struggling, my heart beats for that person. So since I will reap my tears in Joy , I ask God to send the rain. As I consecrate and set my life aside for a plan and task SOO MUCH BIGGER than I am… I pray that I would be counted among the righteous so that my prayer would availeth much for the one who has yet to TRULLY SEE HIS FACE.
My prayer is for YOU because what you face today does not have to be what you face tomorrow. My prayer is for you because if you let PERFECT love you, there is NOTHING in this life that can tear you down and make you feel as though there is no way up..
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Yoga II - Day ?
I haven't wrote since my first day of yoga (almost 4 weeks ago). But Yoga is amazing!. I LOVE love LOVE it :)
So, Wednesday at yoga the instructor was talking about emotion. She read some passage outta some book, but she spoke on how one emotion leads to another, and so on and so forth. It begins a chain of emotions that flows something like a stream, until you reach the end.
There are 3 main emotions.. Positive, neutral and Negative.
The main point was meditation and how doing this will increase your ability to stay in the positive.
So how do you pull yourself ouyt of a funk? How difficult is it for you to get back to a neutral state from a state of negativity, then to a stat of positivity.
In each negative situation there lies an opportunity for growth, and opportunity to use that event as a catalyst to push in a future situation. A neutral state of mind usually brings about unwanted anxiety or thoughts, because when we are bored, the mind wanders.
So building up to a daily meditation and prayer time with God will help you stay in a state of positivity. It will give you the “Umph” that you need in order to change a negative into a positive. It will help you not wallow in sorrow and elevate to a more positive state.
There isn’t anything wrong with emotion, its good to be able to interpret how you “FEEL”, however its IMPORTANT NOT TO LET YOUR EMOTION REGULATE HOW YOU OPPERATE. You want to be able to see through the fog of emotion and act and think rationally and accordingly. So stay meditated on God and the word :)
Scripture:
Psa 104:34 Let thy meditation be sweet unto him: I will rejoice in Jehovah.
Psa 119:99 I have more understanding than all my teachers; For thy testimonies are my meditation.
So, Wednesday at yoga the instructor was talking about emotion. She read some passage outta some book, but she spoke on how one emotion leads to another, and so on and so forth. It begins a chain of emotions that flows something like a stream, until you reach the end.
There are 3 main emotions.. Positive, neutral and Negative.
The main point was meditation and how doing this will increase your ability to stay in the positive.
So how do you pull yourself ouyt of a funk? How difficult is it for you to get back to a neutral state from a state of negativity, then to a stat of positivity.
In each negative situation there lies an opportunity for growth, and opportunity to use that event as a catalyst to push in a future situation. A neutral state of mind usually brings about unwanted anxiety or thoughts, because when we are bored, the mind wanders.
So building up to a daily meditation and prayer time with God will help you stay in a state of positivity. It will give you the “Umph” that you need in order to change a negative into a positive. It will help you not wallow in sorrow and elevate to a more positive state.
There isn’t anything wrong with emotion, its good to be able to interpret how you “FEEL”, however its IMPORTANT NOT TO LET YOUR EMOTION REGULATE HOW YOU OPPERATE. You want to be able to see through the fog of emotion and act and think rationally and accordingly. So stay meditated on God and the word :)
Scripture:
Psa 104:34 Let thy meditation be sweet unto him: I will rejoice in Jehovah.
Psa 119:99 I have more understanding than all my teachers; For thy testimonies are my meditation.
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