Excitement and Patience in order to go deeper..

Lately my spirit has just been on fire. I'm just head over heels (never truly got the reasoning behind this saying..help?) in excitement. I just know in years to come SOMETHING IS COMING and I know i want to be in position to be apart of it. I've gotten so excited. I've begun to look at different opportunity and different things i could do to help me along the way. But i saw how my excitement could quickly cloud the path of God. I was looking up all these different youth functions and all these different ministry minded developmental opportunities. And i just went a little over the top (maybe). So i quickly (after 2days of a somewhat intense research, listening and watching to countless podcasts, having some prayer and other things I realized its great to be EXCITED, but I need to remember PATIENCE. Because my excitement could lead me to get a head of Gods plan of cultivation. If I become to busy trying to research and apply and go to everything tha COULD POSSIBLY help me, I could EASILY MISS the oppurtunities God is going to to putin my path.

I surfed through Bethany Prayer Center's website with a special focus on their 220 group, which is there youth group that goes up to the age 25. And I watched the speakers minister to the youth, I saw and felt the movement of God through these things and the my maind question was..."HOW IN THE WORLD DO YOU EMPTY YOURSELF OUT TO BE USED LIKE THIS?" Im like God I want to be around people like that (not saying that I am not right now), and be an addition to the atomosphere I want to be like that in the spirit.

So For me its about doing this, so that I can be the best vessel possible when Im called to step up.

I really want to learn how to pour myself completely out, so that God may reign and get glory out of my life. I desire to be used, but I desire more than anything right now to use this time to fully emerse myself in God. I desire to get to a place of brokeness, a place where I am
completely poured out so that God can pour into me and i can pour Him out unto others.

It's a nerve wrecking thing to think about it...brokeness that is. Its spirit quaking to desire to be broken and poured out in order to do the will of God. However I don't see a life not attached to life changing ministry and I dont see my life attatched to life changing ministry with out my whole being , being totally depleted of self and completly concentrated on Him.

I want to do what it takes to here God tell me, some variation of these words..."You have given yourself to me in every aspect of your life, you have yeilded your mind, heart, mind, body and will to my plans and for that you will now go out into the earth and be a vessel, you will go out unto the earth and fulfill what it is i have for you. Because you clung to my words, and ran for Me and my spirt, you are in a position to receive all I have for you"

I want to do what it takes in life, be all that i can possibily be in Christ. I dont have words to explain the FIRE and burning that is goign on in my spirit. So im setting my sights on learning how to walk in these things that i have no seen but I know they are to come...

..and with all that being said I still feel as though the surface has not even been scratched.

I just Praise God, for being bigger than my itty bity mind could contain. I Thank God for have a course and plan for me and for changing the things that the enemy had made for evil, into good. Im going deeper...