Passion and Desire...

::Sigh::

It is truly heart wrenching for me to talk about this subject because my heart flows for the people I am speaking of because it used to be me in some ways. I could paint you an extremely graphic picture, but once we reached the end you would see how much of the picture seemed to mirror you. Because what I will speak about EACH of us can relate to it in some way shape or form. Including Me. However I have a deep passion and desire to be used in the lives of youth and young adults in a way to break cycles, and uncover past suppressed feelings in order to restore a better person by showing people there worth (as stated in the word) and somehow proving to them that, the past hasnt broken you, but its equipped you to triumph over what holds you back.

Each day I walk out into the world and stare women in the face. Women from broken homes, that led to broken hearts which lead to broken people. Women who have had life expierences or maybe even one experience that completely shaped and molded the way they looked at the world and that gave reason to why they do the things they do. I stare into the eyes of scared individuals and listen to the voices suppressed emotion, lost to confusion. Women who have learned to survive by sweeping there deepest and uttermost, pains, fears and experiences under a rug. Women who have swept, covered and walked away from things thinking that it would solve their problem. The irony of it all is that those things we have forgotten over the years are the things that hold us back from reaching potential. Its what holds us back from putting an end to cycles of men in lives, cycles of hurt, cycles of fear, cycles of pain, cycles of feeling lonely, cycles of cycles.

This is where my passion lies, and the more I see that, andthe more I am confident enough to finally state that I feel like...Im in the wrong major! lol Even though I initially was going to be a psych major I know that goin into Physical Therapy will supply me with ample time to build a family life and a life dedicated to ministry with out having a stressful , life consuming career. --But anyways...-


My passion lies in the family, friends and acquaintences that I have who are lost to a life leading them down a road of unhapiness or feigned happiness... God forbid an early death. It lies with the young girls I see who dont have the confidence adequate enough to feel strong and secure in themselves. To the girls and young women who get lost in cycles of boyfriends and miscontrued love, only to be broken and left to digress more. My heart goes out to those who throw up the tough exterior and no matter how hard they try to overcome it they cant because they are unable to face the past they try to forget. My heart goes out to these people because we all face these things. But my heart is for the young lady who doesnt understand that God is capable of restoring every piece of you, if you are willing to give up the things you hold onto in this world for comfort.

But thats the key. Many aren't willing to give up ourselves inorder to be restored, because of fear, because we have become comfortable, or just because

My desire is that my testimony can bring a sense of hope to others and that it can show that no matter how small or big something maybe God is in the midst. My prayer is that I can touch lives and lead people out of blindness through love and honest truth.

The bible says in 1Co 13:12 "For now we see in a mirror, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know fully even as also I was fully known"
1Co 13:13 "But now abideth faith, hope, love, these three; and the greatest of these is love. "

I want to be emptied so that I may be used. I desire to give hope, I desire to help those grow in faith and I Desire to be an EXAMPLE OF GOD's Love, because I have experienced Him, I know Him and He knows me. Therefore I daily move towards seeing more clearly, the things that I once saw dimly.

Too many times people have told me that I am "one of the happiest people they have ever met" or that I never seem to be stressed. But 98% of the time they dont believe its obtainable for themselves. Some of it may be my personality but i can TESTIFY that the Majority is due to the peace of God that was due to the overcomig of my test and trials. A life of peace, favor, mercy and grace is HIGHLY OBTAINABLE. A perfect life,no, because it falls on the just as the unjust, but your life can be better , if you decide to walk better, talk better and be better, by being honest with yourself and willing to leave behind the things that have you bound.

I have a desire to see people break out of the clutter of this world and be opened up to a life lived in decency and order, according to the will of God....

That is my hearts desire, in a very tiny nutshell...